I just needed something to take the edge off. This girl Heather had some stuff that helped. I didn't want to go this far down though. Its like all of the pain goes away all at once, but if you take away my pain, am I really me anymore?

I had the house dream again. This time I was outside, looking in. The door was locked though. But then, like the way dreams do, I just kind of turned around and I was in that same room I always see. The smell of old food or something. It woke me up. I wish you were here with me right now.